Yes, my friends, it’s true. I turned 40 last week in the time of corona. My day went a bit like this…
I awake to the sound of text messages coming in.
Awwww!! So early!!
Not so much. They’re TWO separate reminders that there are zoom conferences for my kids in an hour. Before a Corona-Panic sets in, mom’s text comes in and saves the day.
**Corona-Panic: The feeling you get when you realize that the person in front of you has just grabbed the last loaf of bread in the state.
**Corona-Panic, pre-corona: The feeling you get in Mexico on spring break, when the cooler is out of Corona.
I leap out of bed with a spryness of a girl in her twenties and proceed to put on a full face of gorgeous, glowing make-up. Wait, I’m still dreaming, in a half sleep…. instead, I drag myself out of bed and put on my new daily uniform; sweats, thick socks, shirt, sweater and ANOTHER sweater. These days my bones feel chilly.
I vow to buy myself those electric socks.
I’m immediately smothered with hugs from my family. They’re all boys so the love fest lasts about 3.4 seconds, except from my favorite which snuggles me a full 2 seconds longer. Wow, it really is my birthday. A revelation my twin said to me last week pops suddenly into my head, “Wrinkle cream can’t save you now!” I give that one an EXTRA firm squeeze (around the neck) which is both filled with resigned bitterness and absolute pride. I’m cultivating a comedian and that shit is damn funny. Bleak and ironic. Perfect for today, I think.
I have asked for ONE thing for my birthday. I’m salivating thinking of that hot cup of Starbucks coffee. Nope. In the Time of Corona, it’s coffee made with whatever milk product is in the fridge. Today is creamy whole milk (tomorrow it’s low-fat, fyi). I take the win.
20 minutes later, I shed some. Tears, that is. I can’t figure out all the kid’s passwords for Zoom, Clever, Epic, Google Classroom, Zearn, SeeSaw, Benchmark. Turns out that turning 40 is a lot like turning 14. There is a bunch of F-ed up hormonal activity, even pimples (!?!) and I’m not sure who I am anymore or who I want to be when I grow up.
Also, why are these kids so big and where did they come from?? I eye them with distrust while attempting to social distance myself. That lasts all of 3 minutes… until the “I’m starving’s” start coming in. How can these aliens always be starving?
I somehow get it ALL working. I look at the laundry and decide NOT to do it. I’m a bad bitch. I do a few leg kicks, squats, hip thrusts. Yup. Still got it.
I don’t feel a day over 39.
It’s 3rd meal time, or what other people call lunch out in the distant world. I dig past the THREE 10lb bags of shredded cheese my husband bought to get to some sliced turkey. Was there a cheese shortage I wasn’t aware of? I think the tiny bag I bought at the hippie market scared him. Hippie Market? This is how I talk now.
My gf calls me and tells me 40 isn’t that bad. I ask her if she’s ever tried Crepe Erase. It’s on sale at Ulta. True Story.
My oldest son defends me throughout the day… Don’t say that to mom, it’s her birthday. Listen to mom, it’s her birthday. I’m legitimetly terrified for tomorrow.
With dinner being made and a homemade cake in the oven, I put on Shrill. Is Aidy Bryant a hero? Absolutely, I decide. All of a sudden I’m feeling pretty darn good. I belt out “I’m on the deep end, watch as I dive in” while doing some robotic dance moves. I could be losing it, or maybe I’m just happy?
Shrug. I decide over-self-reflection is a thing of my 30’s. Self-acceptance feels very 40.
Over dinner I climb up on my horse, cue the orchestra, and tell the kids that I’ve done great things in my life and feel good about the next chapter (remember I’m saying old people shit now), that I have a lot left in me (??) and really feel like the best is yet to come. Even I can’t believe the garbage coming out of my mouth. I can feel them rolling their eyes, mouthing, “Okay Boomer,” (I’M NOT A F’IN BOOMER FOR THE MILLIONTH TIME!!). I can see them inching off the edge of their chair to attempt an escape. BUT I’M FEELIN’ IT Y’ALL. I talk another 15 minutes longer, JUST BECAUSE I CAN. Normally, THEY talk and I listen. But today it’s all about me and I’m a savage and mama take what she wants.
And with that, I know my day is complete. I’ve made it another 24 hours without leaving the house. I’ve annoyed the kids with a long speech that they couldn’t do a thing about (always a bonus). I’ve washed every dish in the house 2x’s over. (Hand sanitizer is for suckers.) I may have entered the best years of my life?
I PICK THE DAMN SHOW WE WATCH. Me. I am all powerful.
Stay Sane Out There!